A friend came back to DMU to help build for a while and asked if I felt like I had the best job in the world. I said I did. I meant it. For me, it is the best. I'm serving my Lama's and my friends and I believe in the process that makes this an important thing to do for my personal development on this path I've chosen. There is another thing about living this life in the desert building the retreat valley. It is lonely. Yes, it's a magical place and the people are amazing and what we're doing is beautiful. But I think that when you ask your teacher for help and then do what they ask you to do, you'd better fasten your seat belt. You will be shown the limits of your love for others and for yourself. I'm seeing how my mind makes no sense. I'm lonely but I want to be left alone. I want love but I'm very busy judging others. I want to make inner progress but I don't want to do my meditations. It seems hopeless. But at the moment when I start to really hit bottom and tears start I catch it. The heart is breaking open. I can go either way at that moment; self pity or gratitude. Personally, my heart is walled in. Service is a relentless sledge hammer. Today it hurts but I pray that it not stop until the job is done.
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3 comments postedBeauty Beauty
You're still there
Teaching us to
always care
Everyday, you
serve so well
Your heart pours into
earth and air
I know one day now
it may be
that I too can be
so pure and free
Of my mind and
of my form
which trap me to
the ground so firm
Thank you, Dear
Go on and on
Your Light protects me
from every harm
I bow to You,
Enlightened One
I bow to You,
for being the One.
Dear Molly,
I know that's you! You couldn't hide your poetry if you tried. You're style is bonifide!
It you're not Molly, you're still awsome.
love and thank you,
Matt
You are beautiful. If only we can all be so full of selfless love. You are amazing.
Soooooo inspiring.
It's so easy to talk about love, to talk about selflessness, to feel like we are giving...even a little.
But, for most of us, we are just getting used to the concept of true love...of loving others more than ourselves, of serving without thinking of ourselves...it is hard to just get our minds and hearts adjusted to this type of beautiful, real love.
But, you are doing it. You are showing us that it is actually possible to truly serve and love. And, it is hard. It's not all romantic and easy -- it is hard, but, it is truly rewarding. Thank You for your precious example.
Love, love, love...
Gratitude, Gratutide, gratitude....!