As far back as I can remember I wanted to help people not to suffer.
When I was eight I decided to become a doctor and followed through with this goal. After years of apparently achieving all the worldly goals I could set, I was more unhappy than ever and so were the people around me. It didn't make sense! I had the career, the family, the house, the vacations, the friends, a healthy body, went to Mass ever Sunday, did volunteer work. Now what? I searched, met with my priest, meditated, read books, practiced yoga, took care of my children. I tried many activities and methods to achieve happiness. At times there were small break throughs, but the world still seemed to be assaulting me. I knew this was not right.
Then I met the teachings of Tibetan Buddhism by the Grace of Geshe Michael Roach through Mira Shani. That is when the bottom fell out of the world I thought I was living in, and a whole new possibility came into being for my mind. Now I could make the whole world understand....if only I could change this (my) mind.
So I shifted my world by letting go of a regular job and studying with Holy Teachers. I gradually shifted the amount of time I was spending parenting.
After years of intensive study given by the Grace of Geshe Michael Roach, Lama Sumati Marut, Lama Christie McNally, Lama Mira Shani and more, I have been given the tools to make peace in the world by undertaking deep retreat. This is a gift that cannot be wasted. It is more precious than anything else imaginable.
The obstacles feel insurmountable at times. And there is nothing else to do.